Mama Leta I miss you

Dear Mama Leta,
You went home 6 years ago. I miss you everyday. Michael and I have been married for almost 2 years and hope that you can see joy and love we have for each other. I think of you at the big moments and the small. I think of you when I wear pink...I just bought pink sparkly TOMS that reminded me of you. I am wearing them today. I think of you when we get pizza from Selby's and remember all the picnics and late night talks we had in your bedroom. I thought of you when we got engaged and thought finally I really am going to be your daughter. I thought of you when we bought our house and hoped that you would like it. I thought of you on our wedding day and missed you so much my heart ached. I wanted you to see how happy I was to have your son and wanted you to hold my hand. I think of you when I garden and laugh and imagine you telling me I'm crazy where am I going to put another plant!?. I look around my house while I'm sitting with Michael and just think you would have loved this. I always hear your voice saying..."when do I get grand babies" and shooting me your eye crinkling smile :) I will think of you when we have our first baby and will want you to be with us so badly.  I miss you at the silliest moments and sometimes think I am going to walk upstairs in the old house and see you sleeping. Sometimes I dream about you and we talk just like we used to...those are the best dreams its like you are coming back to visit. You were an amazing light in my life and I will always carry that light with me.
Love,
Jillian

Fall has arrived...

I am so excited that Fall is finally here! I love the weather and all the fun things that come with it. Today was one of those gorgeous perfect fall days...It was warm in the sun but cool in the breeze- just enough for a sweater. When I woke up this morning I really wanted to break out the boots but I told myself not to rush it. I am not coaching cheerleading this year or teaching and it feels a little strange to not be part of school fall activities. I am going to do as much as I can with my friends and family and in my garden. I really want to enjoy this fall and not waste any of these beautiful days.

 I have really big plans for my garden to get it ready for spring! (I know I am thinking way ahead) Fall is bulb planting time and I have tons to plant thanks to my wonderful husband. This will be third spring in this garden and I am finally adding lots of spring color. Over the summer I filled in all my beds and dug a few new ones (I can always find somewhere to put flowers). We also added hardscape in the back in the form of a gravel driveway for the shed and a fire pit seating area (I will post pictures soon) I really love how everything has come together and all the little areas I have to play with. I am really excited to add my bulbs into the mix. I have about 100 tulips to scatter everywhere in purple, red, yellow, and white. I also have lots of different types of daffodils, hyacinths, and crocus for color all spring. Spring used to be my least favorite season mostly because of my allergies (I'm a weird gardener...terrible allergies and I'm afraid of bees!) but now spring is like christmas waiting for all my flowers to bloom.

I am loving all the fall flowers that I have been snapping up, mums, pansies, asters, and ornamental peppers. I jumped the gun in August and bought some mums and they all died because it was so hot! The ones I bought this week are doing great and are filling my garden with pretty colors since many of my summer flowers have gotten over grown or are starting to die now that it's getting cooler at night.

Pictures and more posts to come...Halloween plans and Christmas fun!